Ashati Journey 5…Day 3 Update

Ok, so it’s been three days since my activation. They were felt physically.

Today…I did the symbol clearing of mental and emotional blockages around the body and could easily see that I still have a long way to go 😦  I released quite a lot…SO IT IS!! but I am feeling raw at the thoughts and emotions I saw still there…

  • Still gossipy…making others look bad to make myself feel better 😦
  • Not wishing the best for others…sometimes even feeling good when they don’t succeed 😦
  • Fear of being seen (in a bad light)
  • Fear of not being seen (ignored)
  • Fear of looking stupid
  • Fear of being seen to fail
  • Fear of being seen as wrong
  • Fear of looking fat and ugly and old and useless
  • Fear of being naked and being judged (all of above)

A little disappointed I still have this even though I think of myself as a spiritual person 😦

But I recognise them. I acknowledge them 🙂 I can name them 🙂 I can release them as they no longer serve my highest good.

Onwards and upwards…bring it on. I am flawed and I AM also love. I forgive myself for my flaws and commit to releasing these negative thoughts and beliefs and habits completely from my system.

I AM

Ashati Journey: Ascension 5

Affirmation this week: I will not allow other’s fears and limiting beliefs to affect my own thoughts, words or actions.

I am Light. I am Love.

This one is wild. Feeling moments of being bodily swamped by energy…shifts in consciousness, like a sudden entering into another dimension momentarily then gradually shifting back into the body. My whole body suddenly closes in and drop in heaviness, my hearing becomes muffled and I seem to stop thinking. My eyes want to close and I just sit still for a few moments until it passes. I try to follow the energy source, maybe it’s a download? But I am almost too drowsy in that moment to think clearly anyway. Very much in receiving mode.

again a whole lot of energy around the head, especially the third eye.

Last 2 nights my heart has been thumping in my chest. Slightly uncomfortable. This has happened before but I can’t remember now which activation it was. Quite a lot going on physically. Also belly upsets…have to eat less and more simple foods.

Needing to do lots of yoga, stretching and walking.

Did a meditation transmission with Steve Noble: The Lion people from Sirius. Unbelievably strong. I actually started to see and feel myself there! I feel healed and reconnected with my Lion family. That would explain my Sekhmet statue that seems to always get placed in a prominent position in my spaces. There is a reason I chose to be a Leo 🙂

http://thesoulmatrix.com/transmission/lion-people-sirius-transmission/

 

 

 

Healing

Healing defined through my own guidance…

You are an infinite being. You are everything and anything at the same time. Healers help you to realise this. Healers allow others to resonate at their frequency, higher than they are usually able to be in and thus access their own Spiritual strength.

Healers can scan for blockages and attachments, clear un-needed energies, remove shadowy energies and hitchhikers etc, pass on messages from Spirit and help to clear karma, balance your energy centres and bring you to a state of peace and calm and harmony. In this state, you can access your own Higher Guidance and start the more conscious journey of healing yourself.

Healing is holding the space for someone to open up to their own inner guidance as infinite beings.

Healers can bring out into the open certain blockages that are ready to be realised, to allow the person to be aware of their emotions around the blockage and thus the beliefs behind them that are affecting their behaviour and habits and limiting their unlimited Be-ingness.

Blockages are merely perceptions of reality that prevent us from being in harmony with who we are: infinite, loving, compassionate beings. When we allow ourselves to follow our own exciting journey without permitting others to sway us or hold power over us, we get into flow. When in flow, we exist in a state of oneness and all things are available to us.

Ashati Awakening

jeans

You know when you go and buy a new pair of jeans and it takes a little while to really become comfortable in them? Soon they become so familiar as they shape exactly to your body and you don’t even notice them much anymore. That’s what my ascension process feels like. As I grow and go through my (sometimes very painful) growing pains, I acquire new jeans. Lots and lots of new pairs of jeans that have become old friends. And friends? Beliefs? Perceptions of reality? Well, as my jeans change, so do all my matching outfits and accessories: that stunning red top just doesn’t seem a good match anymore and the sparkly earrings just clash…and those well worn boots? They just make the whole thing seem tired. So I try new outfits, but other things now seem to fit better too and actually when I start being creative with how I wear them, they enhance everything!

So, that is where I am on my journey, started in 2014, now Ascension 4: experiencing the process of higher and higher frequency energies being integrated into my energetic bodies. Connecting more with my true heart’s Truth (I AM eternal and un-conditonal Love, a spark of the Divine, connected to All things as One) and letting go of what is no longer my truth (trying to ‘do it all’, proving myself worthy of love and praise and admiration, being ‘good’ and pleasing everyone else, limiting myself and losing myself and my health in the process, and blaming everyone and everything else for what I was creating and manifesting in my own life).

I take deeper breathes, I stretch my mind and my body more, I get out in nature more and allow myself to rest more and just BE, I try to be kind to myself and my body and my mind and forgive my emotional responses, even when I know I can do better. I feel more bliss as I allow myself to be drawn to do what I really want to do in each moment of the Now. And I have found that because I am more kind and compassionate to myself, I can be kinder and more compassionate to others.

My heart is filled with gratitude to Jerome Baudel and my other beautiful Ashati teachers Christianne and MaryAnne and the Ashati guides and all the energies, and my new Ashati friends, as I know it has made my awakening easier than most, and brought me more awareness of my Higher Self and Guidance that was there all along.

Having said that, when I say that I have had it easier than most, I don’t mean to give the impression that healing myself is easy. Jerome’s last message confirms this. I recall days of lying face down on the grass in my garden hysterically pouring out my heart to the Earth as yet another veil was lifted. Being honest with your own life and patterns and becoming more authentic is bloody hard work! Facing up to truth can be incredibly raw and certainly not for the feint hearted. (Now, I say “bring it on!”🙂

What I meant was that the Ashati journey seems to have its own intelligence that mixes with my higher intelligence and guidance and everything just flows in perfect synchronicity. Incredible coincidences become common-place. I learn exactly what I need to learn, experience exactly what I need to experience and get exactly the right help and assistance when I need it, as each veil is lifted and a layer is removed from the fog around me. (I keep saying”I” as I’m talking about my own journey and don’t want to presume for others but I suspect others have similar stories).

To explain the fast tracking…I have been on a spiritual path since 2000 when I wrote the word “remember’ via automatic writing during a particularly difficult period. Now, you would think that a jolt like that would start me on a massive self healing journey to actually remember what it was I was meant to remember. But I couldn’t do it! I just went round and round in circles buying more incense sticks and seeing psychics and getting more frustrated and down.

There’s something in everyone who has started this awakening journey that feels the calling to self-heal and wake-up to authenticity and then get on with whatever it is their true heart feels drawn to do. That’s what I feel, not speaking on behalf of anyone. Personally I feel that i agreed to come here (to Earth) only because I knew this help would be available. A helping hand to lift me out of the fog. There’s truth to what your friend has said.

Thank you for reading to end 🙂 I wish you all the love in the world for your own journey X

Ashati Journey: Ascension 4

It’s been a difficult one. Hard to actually discern what’s going on. I have not had my monthly cycle in over 7 weeks. This suggests some very big changes happening. I have also completely buzzed out my phone. The screen is un-viewable and I keep getting slightly zapped by it. I have also completely ruined two laptops. Mostly the screens just get weird. Sharon tells me the same is happening to her devices.

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Another strange thing is bugs. They land on me. They sit there for ages and I think “aww, look at that bug, feeling so calm to sit on me” Then I realise it has died!   It’s just frozen in place …! It has maybe been electrocuted? I don’t even know what’s happening but it has happened three times in the last month.

Sad 😦

Ascension 3 was dissolving the lower mental and emotional bodies and I do feel more in control of things…I still feel the reactions but I’m very quick to stabilise. Life is calm, peaceful and serene. When it is not, I am quick to re-stabilise.

this one…well, I am finding myself dealing with old, old family baggage…the big catholic cloud that hangs over my parents preventing them from thinking they have access to their own salvation and healing. They are so disempowered. Last week I was told that the church says ‘we shouldn’t do hands on healing’…imagine that! What was Jesus doing with the ‘laying on of hands’? It would all be laughable if it were not my parents. I feel sad that they close their minds to possibilities outside of the church teachings and blindly allow themselves to be led. They give money every time it is asked for, for anything! This week it was for pensions for retired priests. Imagine the church not paying it’s priests a pensions when they retire. They have 8 billion dollars in assets worldwide. 8 billion. Anyway, these things actually don’t upset me, nor where my parents chose to spend their money, it is just this sense of power and control that this institution has over their minds.

But I also feel a sense of release.

When my family members talk about stuff I see it clearly. Things seem more obvious.

Massive changes happening.

Making my business website with WordPress

Ok, so I want 2 websites: one for painting and one for healing/Ashati etc

This blog is a freebie on WordPress. That’s fine for now as this blog is really my journal.

The painting one has now been created but not set up…steep learning curve! I have already made a number of websites in my teaching job using weebly and Wikispaces but Herve strongly suggests WordPress so I am going for it.

I tried to use the basic free plan (this blog) but it was sooo limited for making a website (as opposed to a blog) and it just got too frustrating. I could only do what the themes allowed and none of them made me happy 😦 I thought if I updated I would get more functions to play around but no luck…still very limited.

So I have now tried something new. Two words: Tyler Moore.

Absolutely brilliant as you just follow his YouTube video, sign up and get domain and hosting from HostGator then get backend access to a WordPress site with all the extras…for same if not cheaper price (he gives savings codes).  So now I have my new painting site with tyler’s site suggestion theme ‘Tesseract’…time to customise it.

http://www.tyler.com/

 

 

My First Youtube video

Well, this is new.

Somehow I feel drawn to do this. Feeling a little nervous about it…like, am I ready to be teaching? What do I know? But these are just my fears voicing themselves and I am grateful for them: they help me from just jumping in and making too many mistakes in my life. But for this, I think I will just do it anyway..sure, I will make mistakes and won’t be happy with everything (already I want to change things in this video!) but let’s try and communicate the stuff I’m learning and receiving.

I am of service. As inadequate as I am.