“I am a pure channel of Love.”
This is what I say to myself each morning. I imagine myself expressing love through my thoughts, words, actions, creations and vibrations. I also offer this love to myself in the same way….as much as I can…..And there lies one of our great learnings I think.
As we share our inspirations and get inspired by others with the in-breath, we berate ourselves and others for one thing or another on the out-breath. We happily offer advice with compassion, forgiveness and love. But when it comes to ourselves? we find it harder to demonstrated the same level of patient kindness and understanding. We are our own greatest critics!
All of this judgement is just an expression of the persona I am wearing. My persona judges itself and everyone else based on my perceptions of realty built up from my genes, my memories and social and societal expectations. It judges in a vain attempt to understand and define itself, and so does every other human persona around me ….and so on and on the wheel of life turns, feeding on itself.
How to get out of this matrix? Well, that’s easy: you die. It’s nature’s way to re-start a new record rather than get stuck in the same groove eternally. But you’ll probably only choose to come back into form and have to start over. So the answer is not to get out of the matrix but instead to be the Avatar master of it.
Because I am not my persona, and neither are you.
It is the mask we chose, (definition of persona here) before we were born…just as we chose our parents, our country and the colour of our skin. We chose our ‘nature’ and the environment we would be nurtured (or not) in…and we did all this choosing before we came here to this (seemingly) physical existence. And just as we can not change the colour of our eyes (without technological assistance), we can not change (although we can transmute) the core of the persona we came in with.
What we can do is raise our level of consciousness and better manage the parts of our persona that we feel need managing. Self mastery, the first step of all students of esoteric knowledge, is understanding the persona and assisting it in any way we can, just like we might bandage a weak wrist…but we can’t deny the sore wrist is there. That just gives resistance (and thus energy/power…and more pain) to what we are trying to ignore! And we can also support the parts of the persona that assist us in our growth. We can nurture them and enhance them just like exercising a muscle that we want to build up.
I am responsible for the management of my persona, for its words and thoughts and actions, but I am not my persona. Just as I am responsible for my young child’s (anti)social behaviours although he/she is not me or even ‘mine’ at all.
Lao Tzu said “Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.” He was teaching us that our natural tendencies can get us in to trouble over time, if we allow them to be unmanaged. Every ripple of energy we send out, whether it is managed or not, returns to us and builds up the experience and thus perceptions of our life.
Our persona feeds our persona and makes manifest this persona’s world view. So we may as well master ourselves. Being truly accepting and loving of others requires full acceptance and love of ourself…not trying to change or deny parts of ourself. But truly offering unconditional love and acceptance …to me! So that I have the feeling of surrendering and allowing…no longer having to defend and protect myself (and therefor reinforcing all the things I want to change). Instead I am allowed to relax.
The next step is to release the illusion of the persona itself.
Our persona/identities are all just illusions of energy: interacting, reacting, triggering and being triggered. You can spend years analysing the illusion of yourself if you wish. It can be very insightful to look into the patterns of what triggers you emotionally and why. As long as you then move on from the maze of this analysis of analysis.
And just think, without this energy we call ‘persona’, where would humanity be? Imagine a world without personalities. Imagine we were all bodies and brains but had no quirks and tendencies? and what would be the point? How could we possibly grow if we were not all energetically affecting each other within all the fun and games of this play. This is what Dante and Shakespeare (Saint Germain) meant by the Divine Comedy and all the world being a stage..
And thus…who are we then, to judge another? …that is the question 🙂 To take arms against a sea of troubles? ie: give it back…and then some! Or simply smile with the divine perfection of the play(ground) we find ourselves in.
I am truly the silent witness that watches this divine comedy all from within, and knows me inside out. Without judgement and without interference. I am the spirit moving through the persona. The BEing from within this mind/body, watching the day to day through the lens of my persona. Just as this silent state of consciousness is simultaneously watching/experiencing through the lens of everyone and everything around me.
Observing this play but with no mirth or disdain. Simply watching.
For us to wake up from being a puppet on auto-pilot in the wild performance we call ‘Life’. To grow in awareness and finally see the set and the lighting and the big, red curtain.
And this knowledge: that I AM that which is behind and impregnated within this mind/body that is called “Francine”, allows me to relax.
More and more I allow that silent presence to no longer remain in silence. But rather to come forward and reveal itself from where it has always resided in full view.
To be..through me!
And so my persona can stop it’s manic cycle of defending and protecting itself. Of trying to understand and define itself. I can simply allow my Higher Self/expression of what I truly am, to flow through the persona that I had always identified with, but never truly was. It was simply my beautiful mask, chosen by me for a very good reason. And I am grateful for this mind and this body and this personality for all that it has allowed me to do, see, experience and learn.
This essentially is what we mean by ‘Awakening’ and entering into a ‘5th dimensional realty’. We don’t actually float off into a New Earth. We become the New Earth. We embody the 5D energies, not by ignoring our 3D realties, but rather by allowing the Absolute to flow through them. And not just the 5D, but multi-dimensions. For once you allow this Light-body to seep into all aspects of you, you have more and more access to ALL. For it is in fact the Universal Life Force within ALL and thus knows All, So that the very persona that we were trying to overcome, becomes the very vehicle through which we express our divinity.
The point is to uniquely and creatively express the light we have been absorbing and embodying…in a physical way. To ground it. This is ‘being of service’ in this physical manifestation.
And surprisingly, in this ‘space’ of 3D existence that offered us the illusion of separation and subdivision, we find redemption, enlightenment and finally, liberation.
When we become ‘of service,’ we are One and there is no separation, and therefor judgment of anything within Unity is irrelevant. You are then in the stream of Divine will rather than persona/ego will and there is no need to manage yourself at all. We turn from being actors on the stage to being the ushers on the other side of the curtain/veil, holding the torch and lighting the way to the exits.
And we knew this before we came!
And in this context, I see that I made some very good choices for my 3D self after all 🙂 and I love her and forgive her.
I am a pure channel of love
(with gratitude to Saint Germain for these lessons)