The Ascension Journey: The 3 stages of Soul Clearing by Lady Nada – Channeled through Natalie Glasson. 9th February 2018

“The most beautiful spiritual practice that I can share with you and which we encourage on the inner planes 8th Ray of Light is to become familiar with whom you are in each given moment, without judgment or expectation. It is a sacred and loving acceptance of all that you are, which offers an in-depth insight into the ascension process your soul is moving through.

Stage One

Your soul is currently exploring expansion. The first stage of cleansing your soul is currently experiencing is the process of releasing, receiving and embodying the space of the Creator. This is a very beautiful process because your soul is releasing and letting go of many energies, perceptions, wounds, patterns and limitations that it has carried through many a lifetime. This process of release takes place through your soul expanding its energy at an earthly physical level and a spiritual inner planes level. It is a great moment of celebration, your soul is ready and feels safe to magnify and multiply its energy, thus enhancing its power. As your soul expands releasing and letting go of unneeded energies so its vibration quickens and an experience of liberation dawns. Your soul is free to exist without limitations, merging more fully with all aspects of your being, Mother Earth an d the earthly reality while also exploring the Universe of the Creator. Remember that you are the Creator therefore you fill and exist within everything. Your soul is exploring its connection with all that is the Creator and embodying the truth of the Creator. This is extremely invigorating, activating and pleasurable for your soul because your soul is journeying through remembrance of all that it is as an expression of the Creator.

Through expansion, your soul is creating space to receive, collect and embody more of itself and the Creator. Your soul is exploring the abundance, fulfilment and wholeness of the Creator, awakening and drawing these sacred energies into its core. All that your soul is experiencing on the inner planes and the Earth is filtering into your physical body. The vibrations, consciousness and shifts taking place in higher aspects of your soul are impacting every part of your being and life upon the Earth. You have the ability to draw these energies and the joy the higher aspects of your soul are experiencing into your being and existence now.

‘I am speaking to all aspects and levels of my soul. As you move through a process of releasing, receiving and embodying the space of the Creator, I surrender all that I am to daily receive the benefits of my soul’s current expansion journey and progression. I am an embodiment of the highest truth of my soul upon the Earth now. Thank you.’

Stage Two

Quickening of lower vibrations. Your soul is delving deep into the lower vibrations of all that you are. Your soul is empowered and is carrying magnified light into stagnant, lower vibrational energies within your being and within other embodiments of your soul on the Earth, simultaneous lifetimes and on the inner planes. Your soul is anchoring so much light into lower vibrations of your being that all that is your soul is vibrating, pulsating and becoming powerfully energetic. This is encouraging higher aspects of your soul to quicken, becoming powerful beacons of light. As your entire being, reality and soul vibrate at a quicker rate, so the Creator showers you in blessings, light and love. This is immensely empowering as it enhances your feeling of being supported and loved unconditionally by the Creator. Your soul soars synthesising and remembering the Creator, establishing new connections and showering your being with such positivity, truth and excitement. Your physical self and personality begin to release with ease all perspectives of lack and pain, as there is an overwhelming feeling of being loved and supported by the Creator that creates a beautiful flow and fulfilment to your life and existence upon the Earth.

Due to the current cleansing mission of your soul, you may feel negative or painful energies becoming more visible within your being as your soul vibrates the light into lower energies to transform them. At the same time, you may experience empowering feelings of being loved, supported and blessed, as your reality flows with ease and perfection. It may feel as if your dreams are manifesting in your reality. Be aware that you may swing from recognising the pain within your being to feeling completely fulfilled and loved. This will be natural at this time, and there is a need to simply accept that your soul is working on a very deep level for the greater good of your ascension.

Stage Three

Your soul is contemplating and experiencing its wholeness. Your soul is magnifying all the beautiful Creator qualities it recognises itself as, sending waves of these sacred qualities into your entire being. Due to this, you may experience surges of energy, emotions or feelings moving through your being at different times throughout your day. Such surges could cause confusion as from nowhere you may find yourself feeling blissfully happy or deeply connected. You may also experience inspiration to take action in your life or to develop certain skills and abilities. This is a beautiful process as it will allow you to become more familiar with the sacred qualities at the very core of your being and essence.

To contemplate and experience the wholeness of your being your soul will begin to download light vibrations from Ascended Masters, Archangels, Goddess Beings, Dimensions, Inner Plane chambers and so much more. This is a way of activating new beautiful Creator qualities within your being and at the core of your soul. As new light vibrations from throughout the Universe of the Creator penetrate your soul and entire being, remembrance of the wholeness of your being will dawn, with new previously unrecognised qualities and abilities emerging to be observed and accepted. When you experience energies flowing and pouring into your being, know that it is your soul contemplating the fullness and wholeness of your being. It is a time of celebration and awakening of all that is your truth.

Please know I, Lady Nada, am present to support you in the cleansing and evolution of your soul,

Lady Nada

Read the full message here: https://www.omna.org/the-three-stages-of-soul-cleansing/

In honour of our 3D Selves -from a multidimensional perspective

Me as a child of Mother Earth

“I am a pure channel of Love.”
This is what I say to myself each morning. I imagine myself expressing love through my thoughts, words, actions, creations and vibrations. I also offer this love to myself in the same way….as much as I can…..And there lies one of our great learnings I think.
As we share our inspirations and get inspired by others with the in-breath, we berate ourselves and others for one thing or another on the out-breath. We happily offer advice with compassion, forgiveness and love. But when it comes to ourselves? we find it harder to demonstrated the same level of patient kindness and understanding. We are our own greatest critics!
All of this judgement is just an expression of the persona I am wearing. My persona judges itself and everyone else based on my perceptions of realty built up from my genes, my memories and social and societal expectations. It judges in a vain attempt to understand and define itself, and so does every other human persona around me ….and so on and on the wheel of life turns, feeding on itself.
How to get out of this matrix? Well, that’s easy: you die. It’s nature’s way to re-start a new record rather than get stuck in the same groove eternally. But you’ll probably only choose to come back into form and have to start over. So the answer is not to get out of the matrix but instead to be the Avatar master of it.
Because I am not my persona, and neither are you.
It is the mask we chose, (definition of persona here) before we were born…just as we chose our parents, our country and the colour of our skin. We chose our ‘nature’ and the environment we would be nurtured (or not) in…and we did all this choosing before we came here to this (seemingly) physical existence. And just as we can not change the colour of our eyes (without technological assistance), we can not change (although we can transmute) the core of the persona we came in with.
What we can do is raise our level of consciousness and better manage the parts of our persona that we feel need managing. Self mastery, the first step of all students of esoteric knowledge, is understanding the persona and assisting it in any way we can, just like we might bandage a weak wrist…but we can’t deny the sore wrist is there. That just gives resistance (and thus energy/power…and more pain) to what we are trying to ignore! And we can also support the parts of the persona that assist us in our growth. We can nurture them and enhance them just like exercising a muscle that we want to build up.
I am responsible for the management of my persona, for its words and thoughts and actions, but I am not my persona. Just as I am responsible for my young child’s (anti)social behaviours although he/she is not me or even ‘mine’ at all.
Lao Tzu said “Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.” He was teaching us that our natural tendencies can get us in to trouble over time, if we allow them to be unmanaged. Every ripple of energy we send out, whether it is managed or not, returns to us and builds up the experience and thus perceptions of our life.
Our persona feeds our persona and makes manifest this persona’s world view. So we may as well master ourselves. Being truly accepting and loving of others requires full acceptance and love of ourself…not trying to change or deny parts of ourself. But truly offering unconditional love and acceptance …to me! So that I have the feeling of surrendering and allowing…no longer having to defend and protect myself (and therefor reinforcing all the things I want to change). Instead I am allowed to relax.
The next step is to release the illusion of the persona itself.
Our persona/identities are all just illusions of energy: interacting, reacting, triggering and being triggered. You can spend years analysing the illusion of yourself if you wish. It can be very insightful to look into the patterns of what triggers you emotionally and why. As long as you then move on from the maze of this analysis of analysis.
And just think, without this energy we call ‘persona’, where would humanity be? Imagine a world without personalities. Imagine we were all bodies and brains but had no quirks and tendencies? and what would be the point? How could we possibly grow if we were not all energetically affecting each other within all the fun and games of this play. This is what Dante and Shakespeare (Saint Germain) meant by the Divine Comedy and all the world being a stage..
And thus…who are we then, to judge another? …that is the question 🙂 To take arms against a sea of troubles? ie: give it back…and then some! Or simply smile with the divine perfection of the play(ground) we find ourselves in.
I AM
I am truly the silent witness that watches this divine comedy all from within, and knows me inside out. Without judgement and without interference. I am the spirit moving through the persona. The BEing from within this mind/body, watching the day to day through the lens of my persona. Just as this silent state of consciousness is simultaneously watching/experiencing through the lens of everyone and everything around me.
Observing this play but with no mirth or disdain. Simply watching.
And waiting.
Patiently
For us to wake up from being a puppet on auto-pilot in the wild performance we call ‘Life’. To grow in awareness and finally see the set and the lighting and the big, red curtain.
And this knowledge: that I AM that which is behind and impregnated within this mind/body that is called “Francine”, allows me to relax.
Breathe. Surrender.
More and more I allow that silent presence to no longer remain in silence. But rather to come forward and reveal itself from where it has always resided in full view.
To be..through me!
And so my persona can stop it’s manic cycle of defending and protecting itself. Of trying to understand and define itself. I can simply allow my Higher Self/expression of what I truly am, to flow through the persona that I had always identified with, but never truly was. It was simply my beautiful mask, chosen by me for a very good reason. And I am grateful for this mind and this body and this personality for all that it has allowed me to do, see, experience and learn.
This essentially is what we mean by ‘Awakening’ and entering into a ‘5th dimensional realty’. We don’t actually float off into a New Earth. We become the New Earth. We embody the 5D energies, not by ignoring our 3D realties, but rather by allowing the Absolute to flow through them. And not just the 5D, but multi-dimensions. For once you allow this Light-body to seep into all aspects of you, you have more and more access to ALL. For it is in fact the Universal Life Force within ALL and thus knows All, So that the very persona that we were trying to overcome, becomes the very vehicle through which we express our divinity.
The point is to uniquely and creatively express the light we have been absorbing and embodying…in a physical way. To ground it. This is ‘being of service’ in this physical manifestation.
And surprisingly, in this ‘space’ of 3D existence that offered us the illusion of separation and subdivision, we find redemption, enlightenment and finally, liberation.
When we become ‘of service,’  we are One and there is no separation, and therefor judgment of anything within Unity is irrelevant. You are then in the stream of Divine will rather than persona/ego will and there is no need to manage yourself at all. We turn from being actors on the stage to being the ushers on the other side of the curtain/veil, holding the torch and lighting the way to the exits.
And we knew this before we came!
And in this context, I see that I made some very good choices for my 3D self after all 🙂 and I love her and forgive her.
I am a pure channel of love
I AM
I
Ohm
(with gratitude to Saint Germain for these lessons)

Part 2 (Cont.) You’re (mostly) a good girl :)

So, had a night’s sleep after a bit chat with Herve (who told me his love is unconditional…and actually it always has been) and woke up with some more clarity.

It’s all well and good to recognise a belief you hold but I must work through this to the end. You see, this is actually not new…I think we all know our issues as they are always going around and round in our minds. But there is a big difference to the records being played in your head and responding, robot-like, to everything around you, and actually shifting it out so you no longer get triggered.

So, recognising that I am addicted to the idea of being ‘good’ (and good for me means being kind, patient, compassionate, forgiving, understanding, friendly to everyone, understanding, generous, tolerant of all differences, helpful, calm and ….quiet) so that when I catch myself, or worse somebody else catches me (that’s where the aversion to criticism comes in), I have a hard time!

I feel shame, guilt and embarrassment. To help myself feel less of these emotions, I usually shift the blame to someone else…the person who caught me out or the situation itself…whatever. But mostly, I am angry and disappointed at myself and blame creates even more guilt and shame…I’m my own worst critic. I am far harsher with myself than with anyone else. Certainly I do not demonstrate to myself kindness, forgiveness, understanding, patience, tolerance, compassion and generosity! My love for myself has been conditional.

The beauty of healing and understanding the Hermetic laws (everything is mental) is the knowledge that all of this is in the mind (conscious and subconscious). All of it! I’m here to experience all of this and use it to expand. It seems all real but it’s all play and creative imagination. I need merely reprogram my biocomputer through suggestion to the subconscious part of my mind with the assistance of the Superconsciousness (invoking my Higher Self).

I retrain my mind to accept that yes, I prefer to be a good person, with all that that entails, but I’m not addicted to it. When I was addicted to being good, I would HAVE TO be good, no matter what! And when I was, I didn’t acknowledge it (maybe just short term) and was mostly indifferent to myself or feeling relief. And if I was NOT good? well…blame, shame and pain!

Now I decide to make a conscious choice. A preference. I also choose to remove the word good, as it has too many childish connotations, and simply reprogram my mind with the suggestions (visualisations and phrases) that I am loving and loved.

I use all of my powers towards the following aim:

I am Loving and I am loved. I give love and I receive love.

Each day, in every way, I love that I am growing and expanding in love.

This means that when I am demonstrating the behaviours of being loving (listed above under ‘good’), I feel that life is great, things are flowing in perfect harmony and order, and I feel satisfied. Calm. Strong. Grateful.

However, when I do not demonstrate these qualities or behaviours, that’s perfectly fine too. Maybe I am even the opposite sometimes. I am human. I am learning and each day I am releasing all that no longer serves my highest good. But I’m patient with the process and patient and loving with myself. Generally I am loving but I am housed in a body and it has chemicals and hormones that serve a purpose for my good but they can affect my moods:

🙂

I am also subject to the ideas, beliefs, emotions and perceptions of others and situations. I can learn to take a breath, look from the Hanged Man’s point of view and give myself a bit of slack…just swing and let the life-force flow through me.

I am also more able to apologise as I no longer have to defend my ‘goodness’. Being good is just a preference, I’m not addicted to the idea anymore and it’s OK to express all of myself. I need to be true and sincere to myself as well as others.

And if I am criticised? (the trigger of this whole exploration), well, that is the other person’s perception (from their own ‘picture of life’) and I can’t control that or even understand it as who the hell knows what’s going on underneath their cover…I’m having enough trouble sorting out my own! But I can recognise that my own behaviour may or may not have been appropriate and either make amends or make a conscious (not threatened/fearful/victimised) choice about my behaviour or even my relationship with that person.

In truth, all I am learning is to better understand myself in order to greater love myself. I am learning to give love and receive love …to and from myself.

And that Love is Unconditional.

My heart is full of gratitude that I have Spirit, especially Mary Magdalene, to help me unpack and come to greater AUTHENTIC love of self. A real embodiment of ALL, not judged, not tainted with concepts of sin or any form of ‘good’ or ‘bad’.

I AM

Na-Eve

 

Part 1: You’ve been a naughty girl!

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So I’m reading a marvellous book: The Handbook of Higher Consciousness.

It is helping me to peel away the layers I have been holding. Perceptions of the way I see life built up from my :

  • expectations,
  • fears,
  • desires,
  • hopes,
  • addictions (to security, power or sensations/emotions),
  • past experience,
  • language system
  • my accumulated ideas, theories, knowledge,
  • emotions
  • my nervous system structure and the feedback from my body and senses and auric field.

This picture I have built up of the world from all of these are also my filter from which I perceive all things. All people and all circumstances and situations. It determines how I respond, who and what I like and don’t like (whether they support/agree with my world view and are therefore ‘comfortable’ and can stay) or oppose my world view and can therefor be removed. …and they’re wrong! haha

So, I had a breakthrough from an incident with Herve. I was crapping on trying to share a story about an abused woman but didn’t know how to describe her to him. To me, that was not the interesting part as I wanted to share the story  heard, but I was trying to describe what I knew about her (not much) and was getting annoyed that Herve didn’t just know who it was from my little descriptions (admittedly some factual errors). I was getting so frustrated at getting sidetracked with this part that I started saying he should know who she was! I was implying this because he loves tennis and follows the game..I said I didn’t know he was sexist and only followed male tennis stars.

He then got annoyed. Stopped and demanded an apology. He was “sick of’ being treated like he was sexist.

So I did apologise…badly and then stopped talking to him for 2 days while I processed what the hell was going on inside me to have this reaction!

Usual crap: I can’t handle criticism. It means I have stuffed up and am not perfect. I’m addicted to being right! I was always treated like an idiot who knew nothing growing up as the youngest girl of 4 sibling.

But ….on my walk just now I also realised something else…I didn’t like him thinking I was naughty and not a ‘nice girl’. I hold a lot of stake on being nice, kind, good. But here was my husband demanding I apologise for being not nice at all! I was humiliated! embarrassed as I was not nice, not good…and therefor not worthy of love. Only good girls get cuddled and held and smiled at and told they are good.

‘Love is conditional’

That is the conclusion my little girl mind came to from my experiences. I must be good to be loved. This is a pretty intense discovery for someone who walks in the Light.

 

Alsemia 11 and the importance of atonement

 Alsemia 11

A nice gentle one in the day. Felt the energies in the heart and head.

But a few days later…hysterical crying over a song (not this one linked below but another similar one by Stellar.)

Much deeper hurts about criticism, humiliation being played out for me to see, understand and rise above (tried working through intellectually but simply got myself more entangled in all the useless thinking. Letting go of the ego layer by layer.

Feeling raw, refreshed. Washed.

Listened to Abraham. Understood.

Read about relationships. Understood.

http://www.thebookoflife.org/on-loving-and-being-loved/

Need to atone. Thinking only about my side of the story. Not taking responsibility. So hard to say sorry! But I am. Understood.

Ready.

My life as a channel

So, I am now a channel.

Channeled message

It started, after many, many synchronicities dating back to my early 30s or even before that with unusual experiences of hearing Spirit talk in my ear (at the time I just felt it was Mary).  But in my 30s was when I was shaken awake through a dramatic series of events starting with my arm moving by itself to write the word “remember” and being rescued from being lost in the bush in real life by my wolf guide.

Then I started my Ashati journey in 2014. This opened me upto real healing on all of my energetic layers and beyond. I started to feel stronger, more that I have ever felt. I started healing others energetically and realised it really changed lives just as my life had changed.

I quit my teaching job.

I re-started painting but I have always felt it indulgent and eventually bored of it and bored of painting flowers and scenes. But this time I started painting Goddess and Angels and then my friend Sharon requested I paint “her as her Higher Self”

Then I did a channeling workshop and loved it so much I knew this was ‘it’!

O offered free channeling sessions via Facebook and was amazed at the response.

Then I connected my two loves: channeling and painting and started offering “Soul Light Portraits”.  I channel and bring froth Highest Guidance for the person via Skype or FB and then I use the visuals I get as the basis of the painting.

I am now ON PATH’ as they say. In heaven doing what I love and giving much love and receiving much love in return and offering people love, guidance, support through channeling and beauty and a way to visualise their highest ideal of themselves artistically through painting…what a combination!

But who am I actually channeling?

Magenta Pixie describes the energy she channels like this:

  • “On a spiritual level, one can call them angels from an Angelic realm, an angelic structure.
  • On a Spiritual/ historic/ spiritual level: They are Extraterrestrial as they do not reside on this planet.
  • Looking more metaphysically they are Me, many, many Light years in the future
  • Looking biologically they are apparently chemicals in the body, neuro-transmitters, DNA structures. A series of chemicals. The DMT and The pineal gland(an activator of them). A DNA code that resides within all of us.”

 

For me, they seem to be a mix of all of this. Sometimes I feel like I am connecting with a ‘loved one on the other side’ (like a medium), sometimes I am connecting to an angelic feeling being who just pours love into the heart with words and feelings. Sometimes it feels like I am thinking things and it comes straight through me, sometimes it feels like a very wise ‘teacher/ master’ being who says things I don’t understand. I say things I should not really know to people I have never met before and I say things about their lives and about the ‘big picture’ of their soul. This is so incredible and I feel blessed.

I must admit to not really caring at this point who or what I am channeling, even though I am very much a person who likes to understand everything. I think at this point, I need to just go with the flow and focus on offering love and guidance by opening up to something Higher than/ beyond me.

http://www.blueraypaintings.com

Soul Light portraits

Walking on water

We are not meant to be swimming

under the water with the sharks and the tides and the deep darkness

We are meant to be walking on the water like we were shown

Until we take wing and hover above it like the moon

Leaving a luminous trail of light on the surface

for those submerged to swim towards

Getting Stuck and how to get Unstuck

Feeling stuck and lost are the emotional, mental and physical manifestations of beliefs.

A belief is just a repeated thought that is concentrated so much that it manifests into form as “real”. Beliefs only exist because we have created and confirmed and maintained them.

Beliefs can exist on a personal level, ie: I’m unworthy’, “I am poor”. But they also exist on the nation or even world consciousness level, ie: “We need to protect our borders”, “Muslims are terrorists’. If enough people invest in the concept (or are relentlessly manipulated through fear to accept it), it grows and grows into a belief, often existing within a system of beliefs that support it, ie: “the world is unsafe!’ This reality exists because the majority have chosen to agree for it to exist and we have repeated the thoughts that created it, in order to maintain its existence.

The wise ones say that things exist but have no inherent existence. We are such creative beings that we have created powerful beliefs that many do not question: even the things we think are inherent, like human rights and equality. These beliefs can be so culturally ‘ingrained’ that it is hard to go against the flow. We have created whole institutions around our beliefs. Schools exist in physical form because we believe that ‘education is important’ and this is what we have come up with and maintained as a collective. Marriage exists because we believe that a man and a woman together is ‘natural’ and they should commit …and then have a baby in this partnership (of course there are more open minded versions around the world thank goodness). We are so creative we then create more and more rules and beliefs within our institutions: Priests can’t be sexually active, wealthy or married because these worldly things are ‘wrong’ and should be removed as they would just distract and prevent them from reaching spiritual heights. They did not realise that we need to be grounded, rooted and secure and balanced in all ways physically in order to expand in awareness and spiritualiry.

But trying to go outside the boundary of group norms and cultural beliefs can be tricky.

People publicly proclaim and defend a belief. We love it when we find others who support our beliefs because then we feel vindicated, safe, comfortable. We know the routine. It’s easy to know and be told what to do and how to think. It’s far easier to know that you just need to show up, be on time, wear the accepted clothes and share the beliefs of everyone around you, even if you all complain and hate what you do day after day.

Just questioning some beliefs will be met with ridicule, condemnation, anger, disgust or worse. That’s because it threatens the safe and comfortable world of not having to think too much about changing beliefs. Most people like to think they are ‘different’ to everyone else but are usually more comfortable with security, predictability and boredom than risking insecurity, disappointment and challenge. Just the idea of change is scary enough.

This exists in all areas…not just the everyday existence of the 9 to 5 tax paying ‘decent and fair-minded’ battlers. It also exists amongst the more spiritually minded people and even amongst the smaller groups that think they exist outside any system. We ALWAYS exist within group belief boundaries, no matter the group we belong to or its size.

So how does all of this relate to being stuck?

When your level of consciousness starts to rise and you start to question things …but you are still living within the very belief systems and individuality-limiting institutions and groups, …you start to feel different. This is really, really scary! No one wants to be alone, outcast, side-lined. So even though the ground beneath you (that held you up and supported you for so long) starts to crumble beneath your feet, you stay. You just start scrabbling at all the broken pieces to put them back in place under your feet and be comfortable again. You deny that anything is wrong “it’s not so bad..it’s better than…”, or you delay, “next year I’ll…I’ll just wait til….,” or you drink or take drugs or do anything other than leaving the existence that you have outgrown, but is still safe and familiar ….and on and on it goes.

You are stuck.

Unable to go back due to outgrowing the old, unable to move forward due to fear of the unknown.

How to get unstuck?

What Pema Chodron calls ‘unconditional confidence’ and ‘shaky tenderness’ towards yourself are what is required. The ability to face the strong waves of sideway glances or ridicule and massive changes, and keep getting up until eventually the waves don’t seem to affect you so much anymore. Accepting that you think differently and you are changing and that is perfectly OK. Being kind to yourself and patient with the changes. Getting out of the negative self-talk patterns by punctuating the sob-stories with silence and the breath.

Take deep breaths and smile.

All things are possible and you are one of the brave. All possibilities are open to you.

And welcome to the beginning of your ascension 🙂

 

 

 

 

Alsemia 4

Felt this completely in my heart. Almost like a burning sensation. When I call in the energies, it feels very tangible. All over the body…almost transcendental. They are beautiful.

I have been feeling so rocked lately…the process of giving up my job and moving in to a new field has completely thrown me around. Things always seemed so easy before and I seemed competent. Now everything is different and things aren’t easy…I do not feel competent. The surprise is really that I am surprised at this! What on earth was I thinking? That I could change careers and everything would just flow…yeah! that’s exactly what I thought. I imagines myself painting and teaching and healing…it was all magical. Now I see websites, Facebook Pages, business cards, teaching programs, official business like insurance and ABNs and lots and lots of writing! defining, clarifying.

I did paint a painting of Sekhmet which I love and I found a woman who does art like me (only a lot better) with a phenomenal website so that really helps as a great model and someone to learn from.

The website is taking me FOREVER but I think I have found a solution in a website called Fiver that pairs you with entrepreneurs looking for small (or large) jobs. I have at least started to organise some good photos for prints etc and for the website, even putting watermarks on them.

These are the things filling my head lately…real world, physical manifestations and developments. Can’t say I’m enjoying it all but it is all part of the process.

On another note, the whales are passing by Sydney right now…hundreds and hundreds of them. So amazing!

 

 

 

Lost

Feeling very lost.

And stuck.

Dreamed I was crawling along a narrow sandy path between barbed wire. I was trying to get to my rather’s house to get something in the garage sneakily. Crawling because the sand was soft and crumbly with caves underneath so the path would collapse and I would need to climb out again.

When I finally arrived at the end of the path I couldn’t go to the garage because I could see my father was still awake, reading the newspaper.

So I decided to wait and curled up to rest.

My father was suddenly beside me, comforting me. He crawled in beside me and held me. At first I was nervous but then I was content to just sleep.

Trying to move forward against the odds. Falling again and again. Seems pointless.

Don’t even know what I’m heading towards.

Need comfort but resisting.

Everything feels hard.