Staying in Flow through great changes

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Times are changing. We are all feeling it.
Many people are feeling their life changing at this time: how we used to define ourselves is no longer relevant, what was familiar and comfortable, no longer fits.
Some of us are struggling to cope in the ‘same-old, same-old’ life and feeling stuck as they know they have changed inside but everything looks the same on the outside. There doesn’t seem to be an alternative. Nothing is clear. Who are you if you are not…(that ‘thing’ that you were before?)
It’s a challenging time of surrendering to the void, to the “I don’t know” and letting go of everything that no longer serves you. This change, that can be very chaotic, is necessary in these times of great transition. Try not see it with fear but rather with compassion for yourself and the enormous growth you are experiencing. The key is to surrender to that space of not holding any definitions of yourself at all. No “I am….this or that” …just being.
 
And if you allow yourself to enter into that space and stop trying so desperately to grab and cling and distract and fill and remake the crumbling tower…then you will finally find the silence and peace of being empty.  And then …something can be born out of the ashes of what you have released. Because now there is space and the universe will always fill a void. You have the opportunity to become whole. 
 
Let yourself be gently pulled towards what your soul wishes to express. Do not try to define it or capture it in words…simply let it be free to coil like tendrils into the creative force of life.
You are divine.
You are love.
You are the Creative force of Life. 

In honour of our 3D Selves -from a multidimensional perspective

Me as a child of Mother Earth

“I am a pure channel of Love.”
This is what I say to myself each morning. I imagine myself expressing love through my thoughts, words, actions, creations and vibrations. I also offer this love to myself in the same way….as much as I can…..And there lies one of our great learnings I think.
As we share our inspirations and get inspired by others with the in-breath, we berate ourselves and others for one thing or another on the out-breath. We happily offer advice with compassion, forgiveness and love. But when it comes to ourselves? we find it harder to demonstrated the same level of patient kindness and understanding. We are our own greatest critics!
All of this judgement is just an expression of the persona I am wearing. My persona judges itself and everyone else based on my perceptions of realty built up from my genes, my memories and social and societal expectations. It judges in a vain attempt to understand and define itself, and so does every other human persona around me ….and so on and on the wheel of life turns, feeding on itself.
How to get out of this matrix? Well, that’s easy: you die. It’s nature’s way to re-start a new record rather than get stuck in the same groove eternally. But you’ll probably only choose to come back into form and have to start over. So the answer is not to get out of the matrix but instead to be the Avatar master of it.
Because I am not my persona, and neither are you.
It is the mask we chose, (definition of persona here) before we were born…just as we chose our parents, our country and the colour of our skin. We chose our ‘nature’ and the environment we would be nurtured (or not) in…and we did all this choosing before we came here to this (seemingly) physical existence. And just as we can not change the colour of our eyes (without technological assistance), we can not change (although we can transmute) the core of the persona we came in with.
What we can do is raise our level of consciousness and better manage the parts of our persona that we feel need managing. Self mastery, the first step of all students of esoteric knowledge, is understanding the persona and assisting it in any way we can, just like we might bandage a weak wrist…but we can’t deny the sore wrist is there. That just gives resistance (and thus energy/power…and more pain) to what we are trying to ignore! And we can also support the parts of the persona that assist us in our growth. We can nurture them and enhance them just like exercising a muscle that we want to build up.
I am responsible for the management of my persona, for its words and thoughts and actions, but I am not my persona. Just as I am responsible for my young child’s (anti)social behaviours although he/she is not me or even ‘mine’ at all.
Lao Tzu said “Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.” He was teaching us that our natural tendencies can get us in to trouble over time, if we allow them to be unmanaged. Every ripple of energy we send out, whether it is managed or not, returns to us and builds up the experience and thus perceptions of our life.
Our persona feeds our persona and makes manifest this persona’s world view. So we may as well master ourselves. Being truly accepting and loving of others requires full acceptance and love of ourself…not trying to change or deny parts of ourself. But truly offering unconditional love and acceptance …to me! So that I have the feeling of surrendering and allowing…no longer having to defend and protect myself (and therefor reinforcing all the things I want to change). Instead I am allowed to relax.
The next step is to release the illusion of the persona itself.
Our persona/identities are all just illusions of energy: interacting, reacting, triggering and being triggered. You can spend years analysing the illusion of yourself if you wish. It can be very insightful to look into the patterns of what triggers you emotionally and why. As long as you then move on from the maze of this analysis of analysis.
And just think, without this energy we call ‘persona’, where would humanity be? Imagine a world without personalities. Imagine we were all bodies and brains but had no quirks and tendencies? and what would be the point? How could we possibly grow if we were not all energetically affecting each other within all the fun and games of this play. This is what Dante and Shakespeare (Saint Germain) meant by the Divine Comedy and all the world being a stage..
And thus…who are we then, to judge another? …that is the question 🙂 To take arms against a sea of troubles? ie: give it back…and then some! Or simply smile with the divine perfection of the play(ground) we find ourselves in.
I AM
I am truly the silent witness that watches this divine comedy all from within, and knows me inside out. Without judgement and without interference. I am the spirit moving through the persona. The BEing from within this mind/body, watching the day to day through the lens of my persona. Just as this silent state of consciousness is simultaneously watching/experiencing through the lens of everyone and everything around me.
Observing this play but with no mirth or disdain. Simply watching.
And waiting.
Patiently
For us to wake up from being a puppet on auto-pilot in the wild performance we call ‘Life’. To grow in awareness and finally see the set and the lighting and the big, red curtain.
And this knowledge: that I AM that which is behind and impregnated within this mind/body that is called “Francine”, allows me to relax.
Breathe. Surrender.
More and more I allow that silent presence to no longer remain in silence. But rather to come forward and reveal itself from where it has always resided in full view.
To be..through me!
And so my persona can stop it’s manic cycle of defending and protecting itself. Of trying to understand and define itself. I can simply allow my Higher Self/expression of what I truly am, to flow through the persona that I had always identified with, but never truly was. It was simply my beautiful mask, chosen by me for a very good reason. And I am grateful for this mind and this body and this personality for all that it has allowed me to do, see, experience and learn.
This essentially is what we mean by ‘Awakening’ and entering into a ‘5th dimensional realty’. We don’t actually float off into a New Earth. We become the New Earth. We embody the 5D energies, not by ignoring our 3D realties, but rather by allowing the Absolute to flow through them. And not just the 5D, but multi-dimensions. For once you allow this Light-body to seep into all aspects of you, you have more and more access to ALL. For it is in fact the Universal Life Force within ALL and thus knows All, So that the very persona that we were trying to overcome, becomes the very vehicle through which we express our divinity.
The point is to uniquely and creatively express the light we have been absorbing and embodying…in a physical way. To ground it. This is ‘being of service’ in this physical manifestation.
And surprisingly, in this ‘space’ of 3D existence that offered us the illusion of separation and subdivision, we find redemption, enlightenment and finally, liberation.
When we become ‘of service,’  we are One and there is no separation, and therefor judgment of anything within Unity is irrelevant. You are then in the stream of Divine will rather than persona/ego will and there is no need to manage yourself at all. We turn from being actors on the stage to being the ushers on the other side of the curtain/veil, holding the torch and lighting the way to the exits.
And we knew this before we came!
And in this context, I see that I made some very good choices for my 3D self after all 🙂 and I love her and forgive her.
I am a pure channel of love
I AM
I
Ohm
(with gratitude to Saint Germain for these lessons)

Experiencing Oneness

 

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All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.’ Painting by Francine (me:) ….wwwblueraypaintings.com

There is a memory buried within your soul of Oneness. The perfect memory of a plan which is coming into being at this time. This state of Oneness is when we recall that we are all connected as One force of Divine Will. When we remember this, there is no separation, no disharmony….no jealousy, no need for lies or deception, no feelings of needing to control or force anything or anyone.

We just flow in the full understanding that who we are is all that needs to be …right now. And everyone else is also exactly who and where they need to be…and as we are all one, we accept and honour everyone’s journey. All sparks of the Divine plan moving into singularity at our own pace and in our own unique way.

But how to consciously move into Unity?

The good news is that it will happen regardless 🙂 Light codes that carry new blueprints for 5D manifestation are being constantly sent to our planet through our sun and we all receive them. Yes, Lightworkers integrate this light more rapidly, not only because they have advance warning through Light Language communication but also because their vibrational frequency allows a closer ‘match’ of sorts.

The codes affect the electromagnetic field of Earth and thus also affect our own bodies, especially the electromagnetic field of our brain. The result can be any of the physical, mental or emotional ‘ascension symptoms’ that you may have heard of. (flu-like symptoms, headaches, dizziness, anxiety, confusion, irritability etc). These can last for moments or days and weeks and can be a little scary or disturbing if you dont know what’s happening.

So what is happening? Well, these light codes are assisting to flush your Mind (body, brain and consciousness) of old limiting, negative perceptions of reality held within your DNA. These old energies need to be pushed through your entire energy field of the physical body and the 7 energy bodies that you exist in (your aura). As this happens, all of your ‘stuff/ baggage’ (lessons, negative thinking and behaviour etc) that you have held in your cells, in your Akash or in your ancestral lineage (thanks genetic ancestors!) will come into your consciousness and may even be played out externally in the people and situations you are involved in. Basically, there may be resistance to the process. Any un-addressed issues will become obvious until you learn the ‘right’ way to move past them (with love, forgiveness and acceptance).

Remember that Light always wins. Look at my painting above that is a visual representation of a quote by Saint Francis of Assisi (an embodiment of Master Kuthumi):

All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.’

How to move through each new phase of light-downloading? The quickest answer is to trust. These are the words to meditate:

  • Trust
  • Acceptance
  • Detachment (of fear, drama, or being to involved or invested)
  • Focus (mindfullness, mediation, prayer, stillness)
  • Flow…allow

as taught to me by Master Kathumi through Natalie Glasson’s channeling tutorial. 

Basically trust your own inner guidance and stop giving up your power to other’s limiting fears, beliefs and restrictions on your personal freedom. Going within to listen to that little voice of your own wise woman/ man and then taking that advice.

It may actually be a challenge to start to listen to your own guidance as we have been trained since our childhood not to. That there is always someone else who can help you and fix you and you can’t be trusted to make decisions or take your own mind and body into your own hands.  You will recognise this as truth because you feel calmer and more ‘sure’ and more solid in your self belief

…this is you stepping in to your own sovereignty.

 

Spirit Animals_how they help us

Animals hold vibrational frequencies that can assist us on our journeys. The more we are aware of their spirit and connect with them, the more they can help us to expand.

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Just stepping outside and bringing your awareness to the sound of a bird and allowing that sound to become part of you, right here, right now, in that moment…you are connecting to Source. The animal kingdom is of the 3rd Dimension. Where thought forms have clumped into denser energy and become carbon forms with intelligence through a brain (unlike the forces and elements and chemical properties of the 1D mineral kingdom and the sentience of the 2D plant kingdom.

Some animals, such as our pets, vibrate at a very high frequency as they are an expression of ourselves in purity. We grow a lot when we connect with our pets and learn much about unconditional love and loyalty amongst other lessons. The trick is to not always talk to your pet but listen also and feel their love.

And then there are our spirit animals. They walk beside you and once you connect with them (usually one is strongest of all) there is no more questioning that you are absolutely and unconditionally loved by Spirit.

My spirit animal is wolf. Here is a video of my first ever encounter with Wolf in England. It howled and howled and kept looking at me and coming over and whimpering.

I have received messages both from other people and through my own guidance – channeling and dreams and in meditation, that wolf is my spirit animal. Not only do I know this in my very being…I have also met IRL !! (see my journal entry here for more details. I think this is very unusual. I have not heard of it before from anyone else. Having said that, I think many people have met their spirit animals but were unaware at the time that the animal was from Spirit. More about my wolf here https://franinthevortex.com/2016/05/01/wolf/

For example, just this week I met Raven in the ‘real’ world who came to warn me of the dangers of opening to the astral plane in areas that have been defiled. (see previous post) When I was lost in the bush, I stumbled across Fox who was trying to tell me to wisen-up! quick smart and get a grip, think more. 🙂 Lovely fox!

On an Earth walk with Heather Price in Shamanic training, I came across an enormous collection of spiders on massive webs. Spider was teaching me that I am part of the web of life, part of community and needed to find my own community and get connected into the web and play my part.More here from May 2016 https://franinthevortex.com/2016/05/28/882/

On another occasion spider came and bit me when I (once before) got off path at the national park and opened to ceremony. https://franinthevortex.com/2016/05/21/spider-bite/

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It seems the spirit world has to over exaggerate to get my attention 😛

These love birds in my garden taught me an appreciation of partnership and love and affection: So synchronised, just like my husband and me for 25 years!
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DSC_2862.JPGAnd of course let’s not forget the feathers! My very first post on this blog. franinthevortex.com/2016/01/29/receiver-of-feathers/

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And then there is whale who came to me when I was asking for the spirit animal of a client: “What is her spirit animal?” I asked. Within 10 minutes I enter a clearing from the bush and see a massive whale breaching and tossing about out on the ocean. That one made me laugh out loud!

And Goanna who came to confirm it was OK to start the grid of Ashati healers into the Australia wide meditation:

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Here is an example of how to open yourself to signs in nature like I was taught:

https://franinthevortex.com/2016/05/09/first-ashati-meditation-circle-sydney/ as well as https://franinthevortex.com/2016/05/28/882/

What animals have been trying to communicate with you recently? Can you remember a time when an animal came (seemingly out of nowhere) and shared a message with you? Ask a question now and then look to the animal kingdom and find the answer coming to you, you just need to notice. Pay attention from now on…they are always trying to share their wisdom.

I haven’t explored much of this site, just did a quick search, but this might help some people…but keep in mind that Spirit speaks directly to you! with all your experiences and knowledge and thoughts…so it’s always good to make your own meanings too!

http://psychiclibrary.com/beyondBooks/animal-spirit-guides/

Love, love, love to you X

 

 

 

Getting Stuck and how to get Unstuck

Feeling stuck and lost are the emotional, mental and physical manifestations of beliefs.

A belief is just a repeated thought that is concentrated so much that it manifests into form as “real”. Beliefs only exist because we have created and confirmed and maintained them.

Beliefs can exist on a personal level, ie: I’m unworthy’, “I am poor”. But they also exist on the nation or even world consciousness level, ie: “We need to protect our borders”, “Muslims are terrorists’. If enough people invest in the concept (or are relentlessly manipulated through fear to accept it), it grows and grows into a belief, often existing within a system of beliefs that support it, ie: “the world is unsafe!’ This reality exists because the majority have chosen to agree for it to exist and we have repeated the thoughts that created it, in order to maintain its existence.

The wise ones say that things exist but have no inherent existence. We are such creative beings that we have created powerful beliefs that many do not question: even the things we think are inherent, like human rights and equality. These beliefs can be so culturally ‘ingrained’ that it is hard to go against the flow. We have created whole institutions around our beliefs. Schools exist in physical form because we believe that ‘education is important’ and this is what we have come up with and maintained as a collective. Marriage exists because we believe that a man and a woman together is ‘natural’ and they should commit …and then have a baby in this partnership (of course there are more open minded versions around the world thank goodness). We are so creative we then create more and more rules and beliefs within our institutions: Priests can’t be sexually active, wealthy or married because these worldly things are ‘wrong’ and should be removed as they would just distract and prevent them from reaching spiritual heights. They did not realise that we need to be grounded, rooted and secure and balanced in all ways physically in order to expand in awareness and spiritualiry.

But trying to go outside the boundary of group norms and cultural beliefs can be tricky.

People publicly proclaim and defend a belief. We love it when we find others who support our beliefs because then we feel vindicated, safe, comfortable. We know the routine. It’s easy to know and be told what to do and how to think. It’s far easier to know that you just need to show up, be on time, wear the accepted clothes and share the beliefs of everyone around you, even if you all complain and hate what you do day after day.

Just questioning some beliefs will be met with ridicule, condemnation, anger, disgust or worse. That’s because it threatens the safe and comfortable world of not having to think too much about changing beliefs. Most people like to think they are ‘different’ to everyone else but are usually more comfortable with security, predictability and boredom than risking insecurity, disappointment and challenge. Just the idea of change is scary enough.

This exists in all areas…not just the everyday existence of the 9 to 5 tax paying ‘decent and fair-minded’ battlers. It also exists amongst the more spiritually minded people and even amongst the smaller groups that think they exist outside any system. We ALWAYS exist within group belief boundaries, no matter the group we belong to or its size.

So how does all of this relate to being stuck?

When your level of consciousness starts to rise and you start to question things …but you are still living within the very belief systems and individuality-limiting institutions and groups, …you start to feel different. This is really, really scary! No one wants to be alone, outcast, side-lined. So even though the ground beneath you (that held you up and supported you for so long) starts to crumble beneath your feet, you stay. You just start scrabbling at all the broken pieces to put them back in place under your feet and be comfortable again. You deny that anything is wrong “it’s not so bad..it’s better than…”, or you delay, “next year I’ll…I’ll just wait til….,” or you drink or take drugs or do anything other than leaving the existence that you have outgrown, but is still safe and familiar ….and on and on it goes.

You are stuck.

Unable to go back due to outgrowing the old, unable to move forward due to fear of the unknown.

How to get unstuck?

What Pema Chodron calls ‘unconditional confidence’ and ‘shaky tenderness’ towards yourself are what is required. The ability to face the strong waves of sideway glances or ridicule and massive changes, and keep getting up until eventually the waves don’t seem to affect you so much anymore. Accepting that you think differently and you are changing and that is perfectly OK. Being kind to yourself and patient with the changes. Getting out of the negative self-talk patterns by punctuating the sob-stories with silence and the breath.

Take deep breaths and smile.

All things are possible and you are one of the brave. All possibilities are open to you.

And welcome to the beginning of your ascension 🙂

 

 

 

 

Day 16- Ascension 5 Tarot Reading

Oh My God! This is just getting worse and worse. I just gave myself a tarot reading and said ‘No matter what, I will listen to this’ then I laid out the cards UPSIDE DOWN! The entire spread was negative and horrible but because I asked for Truth, honesty, love and compassion and also that I would accept it no matter what I now have no escape from the messages.

The spread and interpretation:

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  1. What’s happening now_Page of wands reversed: delays, talking but not doing it. (Answer: Work Hard towards the goal, you can do anything!)
  2. What’s crossing me for good or bad_King of Pentacles reversed: wealth and opulence and laziness, complains but does nothing to change it. (Answer: Get cracking and be a business minded person…there will be success through self worth of a job well done, action required)
  3. The root cause or basis and inner feelings_9 of wands reversed:looking back and focussing on the negatives (Answer: Stop delaying and start doing!)
  4.  Past…what’s leaving_3 of wands reversed: Can’t move forward, delays, not right timing (Answer: Make decisions!)
  5. What crowns me, the possible outcomes if nothing changes_Death reversed: refusing change, stagnation, fear and resentment, holding on to the old. (Answer: Look differently like the Hanged Man, change your perspective!).
  6. Near future_Wheel of Fortune reversed: Life has its ups and downs but all things change, get ready for change (Answer: meditate and go within for wise counsel, reassess, write and plan then shine your light on the world)
  7. My own negative feelings_8 of pentacles reversed: Lacking commitment to the work at hand. (Answer:Don’t give up! Look long term and work steadily towards the goal, it will be fruitful!)
  8. The feelings of others around me_Magician reversed: ungrounded, scattered thoughts and energy, feeling empty. (Answer: It’s not working so get back to intuition, go back to being the Fool: take the leap of faith in innocence and trust and have no fear of not knowing)
  9. My own positive feelings_Judgment reversed: I DONT KNOW! there’s no clarity. Self doubt and self judgement. Overly hard or critical of myself. Trying to avoid external  judgement through inaction, fear of not passing the test/ failing. (Answer: Be creative, proactive and have fun like the Sun, don’t take life so seriously. There has been momentum building , now is not the time for shyness, doubt, hesitation)
  10. The Outcome_Queen of swords reversed: No insight, critical of self and others, stirs up drama, bitter and resentful. (Answer: Be swift and quick witted and smart. See an opportunity where no-one else does and go for it with all your efforts…mentally, physically and emotionally!)

Stuck in old ways, thinking negative things about people I have already left..secretly happy when things go wrong and dramas because that helps to justify my decisions. Not liking people but still thinking about them, even talking about them even though I never see them. Stirring up problems and drama.

Not committing…thinking everything is already very comfortable and safe and cosy and scared of moving out and onwards. Stuck in old patterns of thinking and scared of change. Wanting the best of both worlds ..my dog, my girls and family and friends but also dissing them and complaining that I am stuck…that they keep me stuck. Which they don’t at all. I’m quite capable of doing whatever I want.

For our move…I thought of all the things that would go wrong rather than really planning for the changes ahead. I ‘knew’ Herve would make it happen, I sat on my laurels and did nothing much in preparation. I focussed on the past, ate and watched videos.

Uncommitted to my new life..still dwelling on the old. Not showing a disciplined approach to the work…one minute saying how brilliant I am and the next doing a little bit of work before relaxing and rewarding myself with whatever…coffees, movies etc. Extremely lazy and not showing much dedication to what I want,…because I’m not sure I do want it…I find reasons why I don;”t do things or even why it would not be a good idea to have them be successful. And then complain because I am not successful!

I know this is related to my lucid dream in the last post…I need to stay out of that pool and start looking to the future with positive thinking and manifesting…by actually DOING what needs to be done!

I will relax into the new way of being and thinking…I am Light and Love and I have support. I can grow and change. I am capable and confident and smart and creative. I can be disciplined and active. I will lose the weight, get active with my business and start the new journey ahead. No more mucking around in self indulgent nonsense and no more getting involved with gossip and drama and bad karma.

 

What to do?

  • Work Hard towards the goal, you can do anything! 
  • Get cracking and be a business minded person…there will be success through self worth of a job well done, action required so start putting your mental clarity towards it, stop moping around feeling lost. 
  • Stop delaying and start doing!
  • Make decisions!
  • Look differently like the Hanged Man, change your perspective and look at things with new eyes!
  • Meditate and go within for wise counsel, reassess, write and plan then shine your light on the world
  • It’s not working so get back to intuition, go back to being the Fool: take the leap of faith in innocence and trust and have no fear of not knowing
  • Don’t give up! Look long term and work steadily towards the goal, it will be fruitful!
  • It’s not working so get back to intuition, go back to being the Fool: take the leap of faith in innocence and trust and have no fear of not knowing
  • Be creative, proactive and have fun like the Sun, don’t take life so seriously
  • Be swift and quick witted and smart. See an opportunity where no-one else does and go for it with all your efforts…mentally, physically and emotionally!

Forge ahead and be a successful business woman…painter, healer, reader, writer, spiritual guide.

Thank you Tarot!

Day 11- Ascension 5- Lucid Dream

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I had a lucid dream coming out of sleep today.

I was in a place and I heard “would you like to get out?” and I said ‘yes’ and swam to the side and lifted myself out (kinda like a swimming pool of thickened muddy water). I stood up and looked back and down…the ‘pool’ was full of swirling, dark, murky water. I was thinking, ‘oh my god, was I in that?’ and no wonderings been so hard! It’s so yucky and thick and there’s no freedom to move and feel light. Full of drama and gossip and heaviness and resentment and fear and insecurities.

Then I sawSaint Francis who came over and starting reminding me about how we go in cycles rather than straight up with our journeys to God. And I was at the bottom of a spiral.

I started crying and apologising saying that I’m so sorry I haven’t done anything…things aren’t woking out and I am not making progress anywhere…it’s just all bad news. He said “wake up your husband and you’ll know how we feel” so i did and when Herve saw I was crying he immediately starting holding me tightly and reassuring me with beautiful positive words of love.

I asked my guides ‘do I need to go back in the pool?’

That’s up to me

Ashati Awakening

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You know when you go and buy a new pair of jeans and it takes a little while to really become comfortable in them? Soon they become so familiar as they shape exactly to your body and you don’t even notice them much anymore. That’s what my ascension process feels like. As I grow and go through my (sometimes very painful) growing pains, I acquire new jeans. Lots and lots of new pairs of jeans that have become old friends. And friends? Beliefs? Perceptions of reality? Well, as my jeans change, so do all my matching outfits and accessories: that stunning red top just doesn’t seem a good match anymore and the sparkly earrings just clash…and those well worn boots? They just make the whole thing seem tired. So I try new outfits, but other things now seem to fit better too and actually when I start being creative with how I wear them, they enhance everything!

So, that is where I am on my journey, started in 2014, now Ascension 4: experiencing the process of higher and higher frequency energies being integrated into my energetic bodies. Connecting more with my true heart’s Truth (I AM eternal and un-conditonal Love, a spark of the Divine, connected to All things as One) and letting go of what is no longer my truth (trying to ‘do it all’, proving myself worthy of love and praise and admiration, being ‘good’ and pleasing everyone else, limiting myself and losing myself and my health in the process, and blaming everyone and everything else for what I was creating and manifesting in my own life).

I take deeper breathes, I stretch my mind and my body more, I get out in nature more and allow myself to rest more and just BE, I try to be kind to myself and my body and my mind and forgive my emotional responses, even when I know I can do better. I feel more bliss as I allow myself to be drawn to do what I really want to do in each moment of the Now. And I have found that because I am more kind and compassionate to myself, I can be kinder and more compassionate to others.

My heart is filled with gratitude to Jerome Baudel and my other beautiful Ashati teachers Christianne and MaryAnne and the Ashati guides and all the energies, and my new Ashati friends, as I know it has made my awakening easier than most, and brought me more awareness of my Higher Self and Guidance that was there all along.

Having said that, when I say that I have had it easier than most, I don’t mean to give the impression that healing myself is easy. Jerome’s last message confirms this. I recall days of lying face down on the grass in my garden hysterically pouring out my heart to the Earth as yet another veil was lifted. Being honest with your own life and patterns and becoming more authentic is bloody hard work! Facing up to truth can be incredibly raw and certainly not for the feint hearted. (Now, I say “bring it on!”🙂

What I meant was that the Ashati journey seems to have its own intelligence that mixes with my higher intelligence and guidance and everything just flows in perfect synchronicity. Incredible coincidences become common-place. I learn exactly what I need to learn, experience exactly what I need to experience and get exactly the right help and assistance when I need it, as each veil is lifted and a layer is removed from the fog around me. (I keep saying”I” as I’m talking about my own journey and don’t want to presume for others but I suspect others have similar stories).

To explain the fast tracking…I have been on a spiritual path since 2000 when I wrote the word “remember’ via automatic writing during a particularly difficult period. Now, you would think that a jolt like that would start me on a massive self healing journey to actually remember what it was I was meant to remember. But I couldn’t do it! I just went round and round in circles buying more incense sticks and seeing psychics and getting more frustrated and down.

There’s something in everyone who has started this awakening journey that feels the calling to self-heal and wake-up to authenticity and then get on with whatever it is their true heart feels drawn to do. That’s what I feel, not speaking on behalf of anyone. Personally I feel that i agreed to come here (to Earth) only because I knew this help would be available. A helping hand to lift me out of the fog. There’s truth to what your friend has said.

Thank you for reading to end 🙂 I wish you all the love in the world for your own journey X

My First Youtube video

Well, this is new.

Somehow I feel drawn to do this. Feeling a little nervous about it…like, am I ready to be teaching? What do I know? But these are just my fears voicing themselves and I am grateful for them: they help me from just jumping in and making too many mistakes in my life. But for this, I think I will just do it anyway..sure, I will make mistakes and won’t be happy with everything (already I want to change things in this video!) but let’s try and communicate the stuff I’m learning and receiving.

I am of service. As inadequate as I am.